Of Eyes That See…

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Present

I hate him. I feel terrible to believe that I once loved him, adored him . I don’t want to see him again , his wretched smile. His thought made me feel perplexed and my future seemed bleak. My life was great before, I was enjoying my life,my academics, my friends, my world and then he suddenly barged in my life and ruined it. I am gonna meet him again tomorrow , may be for the last time, may be for my own good. It is going to be another sleepless night.

Past

It all started six months ago when we were arranged to meet up at a Friend’s house. I despised the very idea of arranged marriage and it was my fathers relentless request that compelled me to meet him. The first time I saw him, I fell in love. Maybe it was his eyes that did me or maybe his smile , the precious smile. A week later we got engaged at a simple function at my house. I had never imagined that I had a romantic girl hidden in me that was doing the incessant talking and day dreaming about him. Couple of days later I got a message from him“ Leaving abroad for an assignment, study well, make us proud, love you, trust me”. That’s probably when I started to hate him.

Present

As the train reached the station our eyes met, I ignored him. He gave me that wretched smile. The crowd in the station helped me, I had to walk behind him and not along with him. He took his car, no words were exchanged and we reached the hotel which my company had arranged for the new joinees. He was about to say bye , I somehow assimilated my courage and said “ I wanted to talked to you”. He replied with bit of stammering “ Ya ya…, I will come in the evening. We can talk then”.

Past

I was surprised by the message. Why didn’t he call me ?. I am gonna ask him why he did so. But he never called. His mother called my home to inform that he has reached safely. I somehow consoled myself. I wrote him a email, hiding my frustration, a two page mail, detailing him how much I missed him, how much i wanted to see him. Came a frivolous reply“ That was a long mail, reply you when I get time”. That intrigued me and offended me. I vowed to myself not to write to him again. Since then we have not communicated. It was difficult to answer my father when he inquired about my fiance. That precious smile suddenly felt wretched and irritating. I hated him. I felt terrible that I once loved him, adored him.

Present

He came in the evening. He took me to a beach. I came straight to my question “ Whats going on, why are you playing with my life like this”. His reply was also straight “ I am in love with a girl”. If I had something in my hand I would have hit him. I lost my temper and barged at him “ Then why did you get engaged with me”. He replied giving that wretched smile The funny part is that you know her better than me. That was a bolt from the blue, I was shattered. Several faces ran through my mind. He quickly took his mobile from his pocket and he showed me his lovers face.

That was me in my convocation dress.

He smiled, that precious smile “ On the engagement day, I met your professor. She had a peculiar request for me “ Your fiancee was not like this before, she hated the word marriage, but now look at her, shes already in love . I am happy for her, but it might cost her aspirations. She is a ranking student but I doubt whether she might get it now. She has changed,her approach to studies has been dismal after she met you . She has missed the deadline to projects, she is not even preparing for her placement interviews .A lot of her friends life depends on that project and I would be really thankful to if you could help her concentrate on her studies. If you love her , then do that for her.

He continued with a sigh “ I dint know what to do. I couldn’t stop calling nor I could refrain myself hearing your voice, but then I realized that I might be dotting your career and academics. I had to take that extreme step of getting completely cut out from your life without telling you. It was tough and each day was a suffering . I didn’t know how to say this to you when I met you this morning. I know what I did was terrible”.He then took a diary and lot of papers “ in this diary I have written all that I did in all these days” and then he took a bunch of papers and said “these are those hundreds of unsent replies to your email”. Before he could utter the word sorry my lips stopped him.

It was a moment of epiphany . I remembered the message that he had sent melove you, trust me. If I thought it was my hard work that got me the first rank and landed me a decent job, I now stand corrected. When he was suffering each day, I was alone hating him .I was blinded by my ego and anger. I couldn’t grasp the essence of love. Now my eyes opened like never before. I started enjoying the beautiful sunset, the blue humongous ocean and the gentle cool sea breeze.I took randomly one of those unsent emails and started reading. Maybe I can fall in love again for the second time. It was going to be a sleepless night.

Remembering those Classics

We are a very fortunate generation who get to enjoy the songs of the current music sensation like Arijit Singh or Ankit Tiwari or Shreya Ghosal and at the same time can easily hum the melodies of Kishore Kumar or Mohd Rafi or Lata Mangeshkar. At times when the current running numbers gets repetitive we can easily go back to those old melodies to reboot our self. There was something unique about those retro songs, it had a soul. With poetic lines, spellbinding music , soulful voice and stylish acting on-screen  these songs are evergreen and unforgettable. Be it Dev Anand or Rajesh Khanna or Amitabh Bhachhan with their unique style the songs they enacted on the screen left you mesmerised. The effect of these melodies were such that the play back singers and the actors of that time had devoted fans who used to keep the photo of their favorite ones in their pockets.

In today’s Bollywood, songs means scenic locations,  acrobatic dance steps and reverberating music, only a little lipping is required by the actors on-screen. But such was not the case with these retro songs were camera used to focus entirely on the actor throughout the song. The actors with their skillful acting, gestures , moves and style had to shoulder the entire scene. Not to take any credit away from the play back singer or from the music director but it was left to the actors alone to justify the lyrics, the melody and at the same time had to engage the audience throughout the scene. But these talented actors did it with ease and perfection. A simple example would be Dharmendra romancing Vaijayanthimala in a lift in the song ” Main Kahin Kavi Na Banjaoon”  from the movie Pyar Hi Pyar (1969).  I just want to go through a couple of them which I thought is worth a mention along with some interesting facts that I could gather from the net.

The 1971 released Dev Anand starrer Gamblar had the song  Mera Mann Tera Pyasawhich was enacted by Dev Anand on-screen. This romantic song has Dev Anand in focus throughout the song in a studio room. In his check shirt, a blue satin scarves tied under collar and with a stylish hat Dev Anand romances a dress stand clad with a sari which he imagines to be his lover. He performs with such ease, using his adroit gestures, that you simply cannot take eyes of him. Known as a fashion icon , he was a trendsetter at that time with his scarves, jackets , hats and his signature puff. “Dev Anand style” was a term widely used, who also had a profound influence on the youths at that time . This song was written by Neeraj and composed by non-other than the legendary SD Burman. It seems the song was okayed in the first take itself by Mohd Rafi which may not be a surprising fact. Another interesting fact is that this song was used in the back drop in one of the scene in the movie Eternal Sunshine of the spotless Mind (2004) starred by Jim Carrie and Kate Winslet.

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The next one is from the famous movie Anand (1971) and the song is ” Kahin Door Jab Din Dhal Jaye”. Anand, the main character played by Rajesh Khanna , knows that he is going to succumb to the deadly cancer in few days. But he doesnt want to take this fact to his heart and feel sad about it rather you see a vibrant and a jovial Anand throughout the movie. But this song is a rare moment in the film were we get to see a softer , bemused and restrained side of the character. With a book in his hand and looking at the setting sun Anand sings about his heartfelt feelings, thoughts, unfulfilled dreams, destiny and hope.  By the time the song is completed our heart is filled with a gentle sadness . With Salil Choudhary’s music and the voice of musical maestro Mukesh it gives the required pathos to Anand’s character. The lyricist Yogesh Gaur had originaly written this song  for LB Lachman’s film but later was picked up for Anand after pleading with  LB Lachman.

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In a similar league we will have to place Amitabh Bachhan’s song “O saathire Tera Bina Bhi Kya Jeena” from the movie Muqqadar Ka Sikander (1978) . Amitabh is basically just standing on stage while he sings this song but his natural facial expressions  captures the pain and sadness of the character ‘Sikandar’.  Sikandar loves his childhood friend ‘Kaamna’ who despises him and disregards his love.With tears in eyes ready to tickle down and along with a copious emotion provided by  Kishore Kumar, whose voice quavers over the phrases, Amitabh renders a comprehensible performance of all time. Music composed by Kalyanji Anandji and lyrics by Anjaan has some of the best lines you could find in the bollywood. My personal favorite lines are “tuje bin jogan meri ratein,tujh bin mere din banjare,mera jivan jalti dhuni,bujhe bujhe mere sapne sare”.

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The list will go on and will have no ending but certainly these songs make us feel good and happy. We are fortunate that we can enjoy and appreciate these songs because at certain level it has and continue to influence our lifes.

Nil Battey Sannata…

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There are hardly a few times when you can wholeheartedly  agree with the statements of  Delhi CM, Mr Kejriwal. This time his comment on the movie ‘Nil Baattey Sannata’  was right on . He also went on to make the movie tax free in Delhi. Touched by the movie Akhilesh Yadav , the UP Chief Minister, also went on to make the movie tax free in his state. Although these responses are a welcome effort in promoting this socially relevant flick but it would have been great if the government screens this movie in all the primary and secondary schools. In a times when we get to see unnecessary, unwanted, ill-advised and dismally poor commercial movies its a blessing that these kind of stories comes out and we should treat them with utmost respect and make sure that it reaches the intended audience.

The title  ‘Nil Baattey Sannata’ ,which is a slang , means an absolute zero or highly incompetent. The movie revolves around a mother , Chanda, who nurses a dream of educating her daughter, Apeksha.Chanda does multiple household works to make sure that her daughter gets the right education but Apeksha neither has a intuitive feeling for her mothers dream nor has any interest in her studies. Seeing her frivolous and langourous attitudes towards the studies, Chanda joins the same school in which Apeksha studies. A competition kicks off between the mother and daughter and finaly Apeksha mends her ways.

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The movie focuses on that frivolous attitude of the child which shatters many a parents dream.Chanda wanted to correct her daughter who thinks “A maid’s daughter can only hope to be a maid, like a driver’s son can only become a driver himself”.With a witty and sentimental story line the movie passes on a very strong message on education which is the very reason why I think it should be screened in all the schools. It will make those kids who has got similar attitude to correct themselves and fulfill their parents dream.